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♥ Saturday, November 14, 2009

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IKnowISuck.,

♥ Thursday, September 03, 2009

Exams over :)

Y
IKnowISuck.,

♥ Sunday, June 28, 2009

Anyone know what death is like ?
Have you ever wondered what it feels like ?
It not as if im dying or have sucidal thoughts .
Just curious ,

You see people afraid of death , why?
Maybe because they have thought what death feels like .
Thats why they are afraid.
Are you afraid ?
Well, i am .

From what i think ,
Death is like sleeping .
When you sleep,You are unaware of whats going on in the world .
You cant use your brain to think.
You cant describe it .

Death , is such a very scary thing.
Most people are afraid .
Those who say that they aren't
Either have too much guts ,
acting big ,
never thought of what the feeling is like or
just have no one to love.

For me ,
I have people to love thats why im afraid of leaving them.
But i am also afraid that they too will leave me .
Everyone is afraid that their loved ones will one day leave the world.

But well, everyone will die one day
Just live your live to the fullest ,
Not meaning eat all the harmful food or do things that damage your body.
Just do things moderately .

:)

Y
IKnowISuck.,

♥ Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Trust .

All ur life , you were a loner .
With really no friends at all .
Only some .

I remembered 2008 ,
Start of my secondary 5 year.
The last year there .

First few days of school, i spotted you .
A new face in the school , You were kinda cute at that time .
Maybe cause u did not realise that i was looking at you .
Thereafter i got your number , we started to be friends , just normal friends .
Then a month or so later i asked you to be my girlfriend .
You said to give u a few days to consider . At that point i knew that you were never gonna say ok
Then 4 months pass , June holidays arrived. Never message you for a long long time .
You smsed me during the holidays asking me why didnt i sms u for such a long time or ask u out.
Then i told u that i dun wanna ask u out cause everytime i ask u out , u would'nt come .
You told me that this time u would come out with me .
Happily i asked u out .

When we met , it was at jurong entertainment , macdonalds.
I was very happy , i dunno why either .
Joseph was there too .
Then we started messaging each other again .
For the next few weeks . We were like smsing each day without fail.
Then on July the second of last year i asked you one more time .
You finally agreed , i was elated .
At first , i knew u did'nt really like me .
I could sense it . Then slowly , somehow or rather you were touched by me .
I really did'nt know what i did , i was just very happy .
Then you started to treat me good , i was happy at that time , very.
Then on our first month , i bought u this couple tee .
I gave it to you before the first month .
Then i waited for yours , i waited and waited and waited .
3 months pass and still nothing from you .
I was very sad , Maybe you did'nt really like me at all ? did you ?
We did not even go out on our first and second month .
Only during our third month did we went out and celebrate .
It was at east coast . We were cycling there .
I can remember the really very happy times we had , really happy.
During october last year you started to change , you became bad, i dunno how and why .
I gave you till december the 31st the change if not it would end there .
Then the day arrive , you were still the same . I did not wanna end it .
Maybe i was stupid . i always am .
Then i just continued it . untill april.
Total of 7 months . i've been waiting for you to change for 7 months !
Thats alot of time . really alot .
You did change , dun be happy though , cause u change from bad to worse .
I really , really really could'nt stand it no more .
And then i decided that i should break with you .

Untill now , your still the same.
You can't give me what i want , the love and everything , you dunno how to treat me like how a girlfriend should treat her boyfriend .
I dunno why , you told me that you do not know how .
I tell u that its instinct , like how a lion knows that he should eat meat and not vegetables .
How he knows how to hunt for its prey and make sure that he is able to survive in the jungle .
Its all instinct , you can call it innate ability .
And yet you tell me that you dunno how ?
Best .
Then you told me that you dun really believe me .
I was like . WTF? I believe you and you told me u dun really believe me ?
Like WTH? You were the one who bluffed me countless of times and i did not lie to you before .
I mean , if i never said that i dun believe you how the f can you say u dun believe me ?
Funny right ?
Imagine a beggar scolding bill gates that bill gates stole from the beggar .
Cute man , seriously .

I dunno how or why am i so stupid , Maybe i really am .
My results were shit , i really am stupid .
I always thought that i knew everything . Maybe now i know that i know shit .
Maybe not even shit .
I never regretted being with you .
Really . i was so happy in the beginning with you .
Although it was short lived , i still ponder about the things we do together , place we have been to together .
You told me , Happy for a while mind as well dun happy at all .
But i tell u , happy for a while is better than not being able to be happy at all .

People out there , You can dun listen to what im saying right now .
It may be a load of crap .
But maybe next time you might think about what i wrote here today .

If u try something , you stand a chance .
If u dun try it , you stand no chance .
Its not like you will sure get the best but at least you tried .
And being happy for a while is seriously better than not being able to be happy at all .
At least you were happy once . And the memories there will be with you forever ,
Thats why being able to be happy once means it will be with you forever .
Because everytime you think about the happy times , you too will be happy !!!

Y
IKnowISuck.,

♥ Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Anyone? D:

Y
IKnowISuck.,